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  • April 21st, 2011 | 11:53 PM
Poem a Day #21

I can't remember where I read this but I've come across versions of it a couple of times in recent reading....the idea that memories we access more often are more likely to be corrupted than memories that are more pristine. (writerjenn , was it you that posted something about it?) As I continue to mine my past for a couple of current WIPs I have begun to wonder how corrupted some of my own memories may have become.



Poem a Day #21


I've been so sure of my  memories
until now
now when yesterday's hurt
runs into today's doubt
I wade into a sea of what-ifs

what if it didn't really happen
or not the way I've always told myself

what if the embrodiered edges of my memories
make it the same
but different
worse than reality
less than ideal

what if I have to let go of my righteous anger
and let the past collapse into the dust that birthed it

what if who I thought I was
is someone different
from who I am trying
to become?

© 2011 Susan Taylor Brown.  All rights reserved.
There are so many stories only you can tell.Tell them, please.



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marynidasmith.blogspot.com
April 22nd, 2011 12:21 pm (UTC)
Memories
Susan, this a very good poem bringing to light an emotion I believe many of us have - doubt of we were, who we are today, and who or what will we be in the future.
susanwrites
April 25th, 2011 06:09 am (UTC)
Re: Memories
Thank you, Mary.
jeniwrites
April 22nd, 2011 02:37 pm (UTC)
This made me think, "What if age has something to do with perception? What if the hurts that are felt as a child are sometimes perceived slights -- slights that really weren't meant to be slights at all?" (I hope that makes sense.) The ability to draw from the feelings that surround those types of memories is a strength for children's writers, I think.
susanwrites
April 25th, 2011 06:09 am (UTC)
It makes sense to me.

It's really a fascinating subject to me, to think that the more I pull the memories up, the idea that I could be altering the memory. Sort of like wearing a favorite shirt over and over again and the edges get frayed.

(Anonymous)
April 22nd, 2011 06:57 pm (UTC)
Hi Susan
Susan,
I wandered to see if I could find out what you've been up to lately, as it has been a long time since we have been in contact, too long really.
I liked your poem. As with so many of your writings, I can find some aspect that relates to me. Perhaps that is because you and I have so many little quirks that are similar.
If you get a chance drop me line and let me know what else, besides writing poety, you have been up to. Still going to art class???
(Anonymous)
April 22nd, 2011 07:00 pm (UTC)
that last comment was from me, Becky
In my haste i forgot to tell you who I was!
susanwrites
April 25th, 2011 06:07 am (UTC)
Re: that last comment was from me, Becky
Hey Becky! Thanks for popping over here. I'll drop you an email. Life is good. Haven't made it to the studio much but I see Lori a lot at our weekly goals group.
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susanwrites
April 25th, 2011 06:07 am (UTC)
Oh I think you might be right about April Henry. I know it was very recently.

I agree, the idea of memories is fascinating. It isn't a photograph/snapshot of time, it's a nebulous feeling that shrinks and grows.
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