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  • April 18th, 2011 | 11:59 AM
Poem a Day #18

If you haven't already seen Brené Brown's TED talk on vulnerability, you need to go watch it now. Really. After watching it you might want to order one of her books. I highly recommend both of them but my favorite is The Gifts of Imperfection. So much of the creative world I live in is centered around feedback from others - is my work good enough to publish, to exhibit? Will I get reviewed and if so, will the review be any good? I admire those creatives who are able to say screw the rest of the world, I'm creating what I want to create. I can do it sometimes but not always.

But after reading Brené's books I realize there are more ways to seek that approval than just with publishing. It's all around me and I've become hyper-aware of it, maybe too aware of it, because I find myself hestitating to do things, to say things, because I don't know if it will be perceived as trying to call attention to myself. As with everything else, I suppose it is a balancing act and I will have to go too far the other direction and then pull myself back to the center.

Chasing worthiness
want to quit that full-time job
my ego screams NO

© 2011 Susan Taylor Brown. All rights reserved.
There are so many stories only you can tell.Tell them, please.


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April 19th, 2011 09:42 am (UTC)
Perusing your wonderings and wanderings and ponderings and poemings, and I'm left with a sense that I'm cheating with my poem a day play. Because for me, it's ONLY play. It's one month, it's an add-on, it's not my life and identity at stake.

What if I lost my day job/my teaching job. What if I were shaken to the core of my teacher identity? What would I write if everything I have lived for for 27 years no longer fed me (literally or figuratively)?

I guess what I'm saying is, it only took me half a month, but really feeling your struggle, now that I've put it in my own terms.

As Laura Salas said to me: POEM ON!!!
April 20th, 2011 06:39 am (UTC)
Thanks for pondering along with me. It's been an interesting journey. I feel like I am still supposed to write, want to write, but I am different person than I was just a few years ago and I need to be willing to go deeper and let that inform my writing.
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Who am I?I was born on the Cancer/Leo cusp and share a birthday with Ernest Hemingway and Robin Williams. The similarities don't stop there as I can go from depressed to ecstatic without ever passing go. I feel scared most of the time though my friends call me brave and I find it easier to believe in my friends than to believe in my own abilities to make what I want out of my life.

Who am I? A wife, a mother, a daughter, and even, gulp, a grandmother.

Who am I? A writer who never gets tired of playing with words, even when the words are hard to find. A writer of books for children and articles for grown-ups and many things in-between.

Who am I? A motivational speaker, writing instructor, workshop leader and full-time follower of dreams.

Who am I? Read and find out.

Susan Taylor Brown

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