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  • October 29th, 2008 | 7:57 AM
Deciphering a dream

Every night I give myself a sleep question. This last week it has all been focused around the changes going on in my life right now and how to make the next stage of my life into what I really want it to be. I usually ask, "What should I work on next?" and "How can I give myself the best chance of succeeding in my literary life?"

Last night I dreamt of my first agent. She was so excited that I had contacted her again. Very excited that I wanted to work with her again. She was amazingly enthusiastic.

For a moment I thought this was great! I knew I was dreaming. I knew I had asked sleep questions. I felt this was a good sign that I needed to get back to my writing as soon as possible.

But then I remembered.

That agent is dead.  She can't help me anymore. I have another agent, one who might not be as enthusasitac about me at the moment (because I haven't given her much to work with) but a really great agent.

When I woke up I let myself just lay there a while and think about the dream. At first I was sad. I thought I had the "answer" only to have it disappear. I thought the dream was telling me that I wanted to go back and rebuild my writing career from the beginning (oh boy - sometimes I think that would be great) but that I couldn't do that. I have often wondered what my career would have been like if I had started writing seriously in the last 10 years or so, after computers and the Internet and the surge in children's publishing were all very real events. But I can't undo the things that happened along my path. And I don't really want to....I don't think. :-)

I think what the dream really means is that yes, this is a new chapter, a new beginning, in my writing life. I can shape it into anything I want it to be. And while it is wonderful to have enthusiastic supporters, it is most important to remember I am the one in charge.
I am strong enough to do it on my own.
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October 29th, 2008 04:39 pm (UTC)
I'm pretty good at dream interpretation. And yes, I agree with yours. :)
October 29th, 2008 05:21 pm (UTC)
Yes, you are strong enough!
October 29th, 2008 11:09 pm (UTC)
What's clear to me is that your old agent's still with you, giving you advice and support as you enter a new phase of your career.

And that's pretty cool to me.

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Who am I?I was born on the Cancer/Leo cusp and share a birthday with Ernest Hemingway and Robin Williams. The similarities don't stop there as I can go from depressed to ecstatic without ever passing go. I feel scared most of the time though my friends call me brave and I find it easier to believe in my friends than to believe in my own abilities to make what I want out of my life.

Who am I? A wife, a mother, a daughter, and even, gulp, a grandmother.

Who am I? A writer who never gets tired of playing with words, even when the words are hard to find. A writer of books for children and articles for grown-ups and many things in-between.

Who am I? A motivational speaker, writing instructor, workshop leader and full-time follower of dreams.

Who am I? Read and find out.

Susan Taylor Brown

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