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  • October 20th, 2008 | 10:09 AM
Monday, Monday

Trying to update a writer's blog when one isn't writing is a bit odd.

I am not even thinking about writing except for all the times I think about how I am not writing.

Today I am thinking about the oral surgery I am having tomorrow. And then the fact that 4-6 weeks after that I have to have two new crowns put on in the same place. And wondering if I can get all that done (if my mouth heals quickly) before the current insurance runs out at the end of November because we've already met the deductible for for the year. And then I am thinking about how I need to call a new dentist for the crowns because there is no way I am going back to the old one. With all this going on, one quadrant of my mouth will be in a constant state of turmoil from tomorrow til the first of the year and that stinks with the holidays coming. Sigh.

And then I am thinking about how yesterday I took 6 4" pots of  Carex tumulicola, divided it into 57 individual plants, planted them in the front yard for the meadow and then realized they might not be the native Carex tumulicola but possibly the imposter. Plus rethinking the size they get and if I screwed up where I put them for a meadow in the front yard....a meadow with wildflowers in-between. More sighs.

And thinking about how I have 8 working days left in a cubicle and how even though I don't want to be here anymore I know it is going to be a huge change. I so don't do change well. Trying not to sigh.

I think I am just exhausted. I woke up at 1am and was awake until 4. Crashed hard until the alarm went off. Woke up thinking about plants that might need to be moved in the yard.

Happy Monday everyone.
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beckylevine
October 20th, 2008 05:26 pm (UTC)
You seriously need to plan SOMETHING for the day after the last day. That's Halloween, yes--I'd have lunch with you, but the parents are visiting. Go get brunch at Gayle's, then stare at the ocean, with a good book in hand?
susanwrites
October 20th, 2008 05:40 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I was thinking I need to plan something but I actually have to work that Friday, or at least come in and get my check (which means I am off on Monday.)

I don't drive to Santa Cruz alone.

I was thinking maybe I need a writing lunch/dinner/something that next week to celebrate?

beckylevine
October 20th, 2008 05:45 pm (UTC)
Definitely a celebration SOMETHING the next week. But do something for yourself on Saturday, just something easy and quiet--you're going to need the transition.
susanwrites
October 20th, 2008 05:49 pm (UTC)
I wish.

Saturday will be all day in the yard.
Sunday will be all day in the yard.

Monday I will be back at the dentist at 1, oh joy.

I need to figure out transition but I think all my down time is going to be in the dental office. Grrr.
jamarattigan
October 20th, 2008 05:34 pm (UTC)
Good luck with the surgery and crowns. I just had some crowns done, and they're not fun (and very expensive), so I sympathize. Hope the change in work situation will bring you renewed inspiration for your writing!
susanwrites
October 20th, 2008 05:41 pm (UTC)
Thanks. Yes, crowns are sooo expensive, hence me wanting to get them on the old insurance.

I am trying to think positively that being home will soothe my writing spirit.
meredith_wood
October 20th, 2008 06:00 pm (UTC)
It's too fall like for us around here, but i wish I could be thinking about flowers. Have fun and get some sleep too. :-)
susanwrites
October 21st, 2008 03:57 am (UTC)
Hey, I was just catching up on your blog and wishing I was close enough to give you a hug. I have sooooo been down some of the same places, if you follow. After surgery and recovery, I need to send you a long email.

More hugs.
meredith_wood
October 21st, 2008 04:29 am (UTC)
I'm doing really good this week. *G* I hope your surgery goes well and know that you're in my thoughts and prayers!
lkmadigan
October 20th, 2008 06:45 pm (UTC)
{{hugs}}
susanwrites
October 21st, 2008 03:58 am (UTC)
thanks!
mirtlemist
October 20th, 2008 08:02 pm (UTC)
I just had a bunch of dental work done and am now wearing braces. They won't be finished with me until this time next year! But it will be so worth it. I hope :) Many good vibes for your surgery tomorrow, and for the crown work, too.

susanwrites
October 21st, 2008 03:58 am (UTC)
Thanks! Good for you on the braces!
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susanwrites
October 21st, 2008 03:58 am (UTC)
Yes, I hate that lying sort of feeling. I know....seeds in the dark and it's important but man, it's tough, isn't it? sigh.
cat_mcdougall
October 20th, 2008 10:44 pm (UTC)
I am not even thinking about writing except for all the times I think about how I am not writing.

This is me. Today, I took my laptop to do laundry with me, and poked at a story, and I feel like I'm rushing to get it done. And that isn't something I want, but I know I have to get the story down because all the rest is just... revisions.

But I'm in Not Good Headspace, and that means writing is kinda curtailed until the brain meats get straightened a bit.
susanwrites
October 21st, 2008 03:59 am (UTC)
I hear you with the Not Good Headspace. I hope it gets better for both of us.
beverlyjean
October 21st, 2008 12:48 am (UTC)
Ohh. I feel for the dental work you're facing. Sending hugs. And I understand about change. It will all turn out and some day you can look back and be glad it's over. Good luck with your writing too. Some day...
susanwrites
October 21st, 2008 04:00 am (UTC)
Thanks for the hugs. It will all circle around but sometimes it's hard.
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